Reading Habits or Why I’m Always Tired

Pretty much all my life I’ve had this self-control issue where books are concerned. If books were food, I would have been under a doctor’s care long ago for an unhealthy, compulsive and binge-driven relationship with what I was eating. But books are different than food, and few people think there’s any such thing as “too much of a good thing” where reading is concerned. In my case, it’s possible there is. No matter what my obligations and responsibilities the next morning or the amount of reading-time I’d had during that day, if I was engrossed in a book at bed-time there was a pretty good chance I’d stay up late and finish it. In fact, often, the more time I had during the day to get into a book, the more likely I was to stay up all that night to finish it (unless of course I had enough time to finish it earlier in the day, but that probably meant I got nothing else done all day). Always I would promise myself that I’m going to cut myself off at the next chapter and go to sleep. But some twist would crop up and I’d want to read until it was resolved, but by then the author had introduced a mysterious new character and I had to find out what was going on. And then of course it would be 2 o’clock in the morning and I’d be less than 70 pages from the end, so since I was still up anyway I might as well just finish the book.

Which is why I routinely finish reading new books at ungodly hours of the morning and tend to be a bit of a zombie most mornings. I’m sure my fellow Readers will understand this lack of control with a compelling new book. Those are the best books, the ones you can’t put down until the end. The ones you wish you hadn’t started reading at 8 o’clock that evening because they’ve eaten your entire evening and most of your sleep-cycle.

But here’s where it get’s really weird. I don’t just do this with new books. Nor do I do it only with books I’ve read a few times but am not intimately familiar with. I also often find myself unable to put down books that I’ve read repeatedly, from cover-to-cover and backwards and could recite chunks of in my sleep! The impulse is slightly different here, less of a “I gotta find out what happens” feeling and more of a “I’m just going to keep reading until my favorite part” problem. Of course, my favorite part is inevitably further into the book than I’d remembered and along the way I remember this other favorite part I just have to read tonight which is quite near the end and then I might as well just read through the climax. At this point I’m often left with a dillemma. Once I’ve read through the climax and it’s 3 a.m., do I keep reading to completion or put that last chapter or two off until the next day? The next day, do I bother reading the last chapter I’ve read a zillion times already or do I move on?

And yes, I’ve been on a bit of streak of this lately. I’ve been re-reading Lois McMaster Bujold books you see, about one per day, and I’m a bit sleep deprived. Last night was The Curse of Chalion, and somehow I still stayed up like crazy despite important work-things to do today.

I think I have a problem.


1 Comment

  1. linnea said,

    August 16, 2013 at 12:02 am

    I frequently have the same problem. I’ll be anxiously looking at my bedside clock thinking I’ve really got to put this down and get some sleep. Well maybe just one more chapter 🙂

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